Having a bad time

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Warning: I am going to be talking about real life stuff here. If this bores you, might I suggest watching this video about the dangers of RPG’s instead, it’s way more fun. 

So if you frequent this blog, you may have noticed it’s very helter-skelter in the updates. I make promises, then break them. I spend one week writing about novels, the next I’m back to talking about video games. Why is that? Why the random inconsistency? Well the reason for it all is actually a few reasons, and the bottom line of it is, I was broken. I was not me, and the me I was, was holding himself back.

Alright so lets get into some back story. Now I’m not looking for pity, or am I trying to get attention in a ‘oh man it sucks to be me, I’m so poor off’ sort of way. That’s why I am just going to give the short version of what happened. Over the last two to three years, my cat died, my parents split, my childhood home was sold, I was forced to move out on my own, I lost an amazing job, I failed out of school, and my girlfriend of… a very long time left.

I didn’t realise this at the time, but each one of those changes, warped me a little. Not only did they hurt, and bring me down, they made me fear change. When one fears change, one can never improve. After all, change is inevitable, change occurs, even if you don’t want it to. By forcing myself to not change, I could not allow good changes to occur, only bad ones. So for example, after I moved out on my own, I refused to work on myself and just wallowed into my depression. This was the final thing that pushed my at the time girlfriend away, and I don’t blame her either, it’s frustrating to watch someone you love refuse to fix things.

It was after she left, that I started in on therapy. I started seeing the same therapist that helped my father figure his stuff out, and frankly it was the single best thing I have ever done. Because of her, I got my blog back up off the ground. Because of her, I figured out what I need to do to get my life back on track, but she wasn’t done. Just two days ago, I had a six hour session with her. I started at nine thirty in the morning, and was done when she said we were done. I was so nervous I didn’t sleep the night before, but it was totally worth it in the end. I feel like a whole different person, or rather, I feel like I used to.

This has changed me in a number of great ways, but my journey isn’t done. I’m going to keep trying to update this blog on a semi-regular schedule, as I think writing is what I really want to do with my life. Sometime soon I will be posting the prelude to the novel I intend to write, and I am doing what I need to, to be healthy.

So all of that to say, stuff sucks right now, but I am fixing it. Thank you for your patience, and for those of you who know, thanks for your support!

Games for non-gamers: Elite Dangerous

Games for non-gamers

So this is a new idea of mine, something my therapist suggested and I have been tossing around. I noted that when I worked at gaming stores my favourite part was helping parents understand a game before they bought it for their children.

My therapist noted that she has a son who plays games all the time, and she as a working woman does not have the time to sit down with each game and figure out which ones are worth while investments, and which ones are just wastes of time.

So I figured what I would do is a review of a game, not for gamers, who can find out if it’s a quality game just about anywhere. I figured I would do a review of a game for people who don’t play games as much, but that also holds value for those that do. A review that says what a game contributes, and teaches you, rather than one that just goes over the new mechanics and the additions, while comparing it to other games.

Sounds daunting as all hell, right? Well here we go. I’m starting with Elite Dangerous, a space trucking game. Sorta.

Elitely Dangeous!

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A new direction?

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So no long post today, instead I am going to try something new. So over the next week or so I intend to update this blog three times. Once on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, hopefully to get into a pattern. However that being said, I have also been advised to use analytics to find what my most popular content is.

So instead I’m going to just ask you guys. What would you like to see on this site going forward? More game-based blogging? More short stories? Maybe an ongoing longer one? Or would you like some personal blog posts about my life and how I am dealing with some of the major issues in my life?

Leave a comment below, please. I’d love your feedback.

 

Tales from the Campfire: Jason’s story, continued

Tales from the camp fire

Jason stared down at his journal, the firelight making it hard to read even what he wrote. He yawned, and stretched, gazing around the cavern at the sleeping forms around him. The adventuring party was currently deep in a cave, making their way to the fabled Deeplands. To say the road had been rough would be an understatement; just thinking about it caused Jason to reach a hand unconsciously to the back of his neck, where he had been bitten by a horrible leathery creature. He had gotten off lucky compared to some others in the group too, their local barbarian, Kod, wouldn’t recover his strength for weeks. Jason sighed once more, letting his mind wander. He would need substantial strength to get through this, and sometimes it helped to think of rougher times. Times didn’t get much rougher, than his exit from his academy.

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Crawling in my Steam

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No, I’m not continuing the story from my last post yet, sorry to disappoint. I will pick up Jason’s adventures later on, but for now I have some writers block to work through.

So I’m going to talk about a game that I enjoyed far more than I expected. I got it for free in the humble monthly bundle a few months back. Shortly after I had a few friends over for unrelated reasons, and while we had a few minutes to kill we decided to try it. Jump to a few hours later, we had forgotten why we had originally met up, all we could do is play another round. Then a few more.

I am talking about Crawl.

I cannot see this title without thinking of Linkin Park.

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Hunting Monsters

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Have you ever had a piece of media that you absolutely hate, but love more than almost anything? Some people have movies that they enjoy, but know in their hearts aren’t good. Other people have songs they love that they’d never play in front of friends. Me? I have Monster Hunter, a game which has kicked my ass harder than any game series I have ever played. Nothing has ever frustrated me more, and yet given me more gaming satisfaction, than Monster Hunter.

Monster Hunter, is a series of games in which you play as a monster hunter, who, and I’m sorry but see if you can follow, here is where the plot gets complicated, hunts monsters. Still with me? Wonderful, let’s go into more detail about the wonderful, and horrible world of Monster Hunter.

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Tales from the Campfire: Jason’s final test

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This post will be a little different from the usual here, it’s going to be part of a new series called ‘Tales from the Campfire”. These will be stories told by characters living in my currently ongoing D&D world. Hopefully I will be posting more, and I may even get guests to write some.


The fire burned low, creating long shadows for those who were sitting around it. The small party had been sent out on an exploration expedition, and were currently encamped just outside of a large, ruined building. They had been out in the wilds for a few days, and were preparing to head out to a new location in the morning. For now though, the ale was flowing quite freely, and stories were being traded back and forth.

The group in question was quite diverse, a total of fourteen people.  They ranged in races, while some were human, there were dwarves, elves, teiflings, and even a goblin gathered around the flame. The sounds of their laughter were still echoing after the last story died down. One of the members looked to their leader. “What about you, Jason? You must have some stories of your time in the academy?”

The man in question, the leader of their expedition, Jason Balmonte, looked up. He had been lost in his thoughts. “Huh?” he said helpfully. A moment later he caught onto what was meant, and added “Oh. Uh. I don’t know if anyone would be interested in my stories.” he said. This was met by a chorus of disappointed cries from the group. He sighed a bit, and said “Alright, well, I have one story. It’s of my graduation day.” he said. He sat up, and began his tale.

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Pokemon Go

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In an effort to improve my over all quality of life, I have resumed this blog. Hopefully someone still reads it, although it has been… five entire years since I last posted? Seriously?

Uhm. Right. Well tonight I will talk about a game that statistically speaking you have either played, or heard someone else talk about, Pokémon GO! Specifically I want to take a look at why such a simple game blew up beyond what anyone expected. Most people are just shrugging their shoulders and saying ‘Eh, because Pokémon’ but I don’t think that’s the case. Pokémon is huge, sure, but no Pokémon game has ever been this big.

So why is it so huge? Why did millions of people suddenly start playing a Pokémon themed Marco Polo game? I have my personal opinions on the subject, and that’s all this will be, my intuition as someone who studied game design, and who has played more games than I would ever like to count. Please follow me down the rabbit hole of Pokémon GO!

My site has been receiving visits for the last few months entirely because I wrote a Pokémon article a while back. Seriously.
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Terraria Journal

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DAY 1

I have decided to keep a journal of my journeys, perhaps it will help me stay sane. I have no idea how I got here, or if I will ever leave, but if I don’t this journal will help people understand who I am.

I awoke to find myself on a cliff, overlooking a small pool of water. A man was hovering over me, he smiled when I awoke. “Oh good, I was worried you weren’t going to make it. Welcome to Terraria!”

The man said he was my “Guide”. He wasn’t able to do too much guiding though, as he told me nightfall would come soon, and when it did, we would be in a bad way if we didn’t have shelter. I decided not to ask, and instead went to go find some wood. Searching my bag I discovered I had an axe. Where this came from, I have no idea, but it helped me collect enough wood to slap together a house. While gathering I was assaulted by strange, jelly monsters. My new axe made short work of them, as did a pickaxe I found. Returning to the cliff where I awoke, I got to work on our simple shelter. I got the roof over our heads just as night fell. My Guide told me to seal us in, it would be safer that way.

I was about to find out what he meant.

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Scratching that MMO itch.

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Yes. I missed my deadline for twice a week. Argh. I will, from now on, be posting once a week on Mondays, and then extra posts when I feel they are necessary. Cool? Cool.

So for those of you who know me, you will know I played World Of Warcraft pretty religiously a long time ago. It was what kept me going through the last few years of highschool and the first year of college. I had my lovely level 70 Draenei mage named “Kadganris”, who was everything I could possibly want from a character: He spent most of his time fishing instead of doing anything useful, and was generally just not very exciting for anyone but me. I loved him.

I stopped playing just before Wrath of the Lich King dropped, as I was rapidly running out of time to play, and to be honest the game felt stale. I haven’t gone back yet, and to do so now would cost a distressing amount of money. Unfortunately, the urge to play still rises every once in a while, which means i have resorted to other MMO’s to try to help. Here are some of those.

Rest in peace you magnificent bastard, we will meet again.

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